Growing Up and Whining (as Independent Endeavors)

I started using Evernote this last week to capture the random ideas I have for blog posts. I thought maybe it’d help me on the inspiration front when I was at the Wordpress helm and at a loss for things to write about. And I have some great ideas, motivational happy tales about how awesomely smart my new co-workers are or how it feels so good to re-vamp my organizational processes to accommodate the new gig, but…

I’m stuck in What The Crap? Land (I like my Lands, can you tell?) because American bureaucracy is pissing right in my eyeballs right now and I can’t avoid it…and it’s bumming me out. Meaning? Well, that’s not something I can elaborate on quite yet — still in the middle of the mess — but I thought, hey, I could talk about growing up, right? Because this is grown up stuff. In fact, it’s actually stuff a lot of grown-ups don’t have to deal with in the US until much later in life.

Growing up is an interesting notion. What officially denotes being grown up? Some people say it’s graduating college or buying your first car, but I say it’s when you can view what you do now in the context of your long-term future that you’ve really hit the mark. And I don’t mean like 10 years from now, or even 20. I mean like…retirement. When you glimpse the other side of that far-off fence through some magical means and can thus earnestly begin worrying about your life on the other side of it. And that really doesn’t happen all that often, that glimpsing of the other side, at least not at this age.

It’s almost a privilege. Not in a fancy private-country-club way, but in a preparatory, I-know-what-I’m-going-up-against-or-at-least-have-a-decent-idea sort of way. Better to have these random grown-up experiences early in life, when you’re young and resilient, than be stuck facing them down the line, when you’re old and…tired.

This is all cryptic, I know. And when I know right from left I’ll tell you more about it, because it needs to be talked about. I wanted to write here, because I need to be committed to this place, and the cryptic speak is all that came to mind. I focus hard on the little fights and it can get in the way of awesome moments. Or maybe this focus is because I just started finding my bearings and I want a little break.