It’s been so long since I’ve been here. I don’t even visit the theatre, let alone sneak backstage to visit the cast. I do think about this place, though. Quite a bit. Outlets, soapboxes, pulpits, those avenues that let us speak out and up are invaluable to our well-being. In this day and age, when everyone speaks up and out publicly, though, it often feels like maintaining an outlet on the Internet is asking for more judgment and ridicule than is worth the maintenance.
Words that have kept me away include judgment, fear, stigma, reputation. Words that keep me thinking about this blog include balance, perspective, validity, indifference.
I’ve been away so long I’m not sure I know how to do this anymore. But something in me says I should give it another shot. I’ve been judged, I followed the path I thought I wanted and walked away disappointed, I’ve burned bridges, I’ve said all the wrong things — what’s left? This place.